Close but no cigar

Passage from “Anne of Avonlea by L.M. Montgomery”

“Perhaps, after all, romance did not come into one’s life with pomp and blare, like a gay knight riding down; perhaps it crept to one’s side like an old friend through quiet ways; perhaps it revealed itself in seeming prose, until some sudden shaft of illumination flung athwart its pages betrayed the rhythm and the music; perhaps.. Perhaps..Love unfolded naturally out of a beautiful friendship, as a golden-hearted rose slipping from its green sheath.”

“Perhaps after all our worries and questions, we’ll discover that all along God had the right thing at the right time for us. perhaps His plan is more wonderful than anything we could create by ourselves-whether it comes with “pomp and blare” or quietly,” like a friend”

Perhaps…perhaps... We should entrust our questions of “how?” and “who” and “when” into his tender care”

Sure we were great, we sure do know that love existed but I believe that God wanted us to stop it before we create bitterness and hatred to each other, our knowledge for romance wasn’t enough to have that kind of relationship, even my readiness and wisdom for commitment was so shallow and selfish and he on the other hand, doesn’t even have an idea of how he feels, a bit of a loose cannon. God gave us this wonderful gift of affection that we didn’t know how to use, we hastily did the unthinkable without taking precautions, our team up was so well-liked that we felt the need to please everyone, without thinking if it will do us good. They say that if you get emotionally attached then you give a part of your heart and that’s exactly what we did and it brought us both joy and sadness. We were so ahead of God without consulting what he wanted us to enjoy and learn, so as I look back, God merely wanted us to enjoy friendship. God knows that we weren’t ready because we were still battling our own personal turmoil.

I’m elated on how God is changing my heart, on how he wanted me to glorify him by doing everything for him, his way, to point to his greatness and reflect His goodness. My selfless desire to do what’s best for him,stood out so I dug a hole and buried all my hopes for him, I submitted all my feelings and longings to God and told him “One day, if you want to dig this up again, I know you can make it happen but if it isn’t your will then it stays there forever” all I can say right now that what happened was a complete success, now we must learn that friendship, should have an appropriate pace, focus and space.same goes with romance ~ "do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires" song of songs 8:4